24 years of dieting!

Just thought I'd share this entry from my first journal. It shows how horribly skewed my perception was when I was a teenager. I think I probably weighed like 150 at the time maybe, and I was 6'1". I guess having a huge crush on a kid who was 5'4" and 117 pounds (yes, I knew his height and weight...aren't all teenage girls are stalker-like about the guys they like?) made me feel like a giant BLOB. Junior High was such the emotional roller coaster! I'm so glad I never have to go through that again.

April 30, 1985

Hi today I stared my DIET! Yay! I did pretty good today! I'm determind to get down to 130-135! Then maybe I'll enter the cover model contest next year when I'm skinny! Hopefully I'll be down to 130-135 by the time we go to california. I can't stand this fatness any longer! Well I'd better go and do my exercises.

See Ya
Rach

What I wouldn't give to weigh 150 now! I don't think that is even possible or healthy for my age and height, but dang! What was I thinking back then! :)

Ready to Go...Finally!!

I am realizing how behind I am in this group! I wanted to start sooner, but between our adoption finalization, sealing and blessing (Yeah!), our basement flooding, sickness, major mold problems, etc... I just couldn't find the time to get going. But now I am ready start working off those annoying, unwanted pounds! 

So, do we all weigh in the same day? What is the plan? 

A New Member

We have a new member to our improving group of women, Shantel. We are excited to welcome her. She will be an added positive motivation.

As for the rest of us, we are in a platue phase. Rachael has been dealing with much stress and Tristy and I have been working on our last 10 hardest pounds. I believe Tristy has done the best out of all of us. Joan also is working in platue mode as far as I am aware. I think we need a spark lighted under us. I don't know how to do it, but we hang in there because we talk regularly and weigh in once a week.

So, to us all, move onward.

Stress is my Achille's heel...

Stressful weekend + Frustration = Big, fat, brownie sundae complete with hot fudge and whip cream. I'll be working that one off all week long.

A Little Frustrated

So needless to say anytime someone tries to lose weight they get frustrated, and I am definitely feeling that way today. I am actually more mad at myself than anything. I pretty much have wasted the last two weeks. I spent last week binjing and eating whatever I want, and it showed when we did our weigh in. I spent this past week very motivated to not have that happen again and I worked my butt off. To no avail I didn't even lose all the weight I gained from my binge fest. I know that depressing number on the scale is dependent on some many different factors, and can change from day to day, but I am still dissappointed - in myself and the process. I had a crazy week, and even on The Biggest Loser the girl who worked the hardest gained 2 pounds and her trainer siad it was probably due to the stress she faced that week. I have tried to tell myself that must be the case for me, but I don't want to use any excuses. I haven't given up and plan to work really hard agian this week, but the frustration is still there. I fear that I will just be stuck at this same weight forever. How do I get past that negativity, and have faith that I am doing what I can to reach my goal? Well I just needed to vent a little bit it helps me move past the problem.

A New Approach

I have done well with my exercising goals. I exercise 6 days a week, but the eating has a lot of room for improvement. I was praying to find a way to replace my bad eating habits with something good. I had been trying to find something for weeks, but I found nothing that worked on my own. As I made it a matter of prayer, this is what I came up with: I am going to work for my new exercise shoes. Everytime I resist a bad habit, I get to put a marble in a container. When I fill up the container, I earn money towards my shoes that I already need to buy anyway. This way the better I get at resisting the bad habits the sooner I get them. I am thinking this will work because it was by inspiration that I got the idea. Only Heavenly Father knows what will really work for me. I felt pretty good tonight when I got the container all set up and put in my first marbles. I will be focusing on doing better and not the bad habits. Isn't that what Heavenly Father wants us to be doing anyway in all areas?

This last week...

Ok, there is no easy way to say this, a few of us didn't do so well this week. Rachael, on the other hand lost 3 1/2 pounds. I gained .5 pound. Tristy won't tell us what she gained. She had a little vacation and never got back on her diet after that. Joan, also went on vacation and is working to get back to her pre-vacation weight. She never did tell me what her weigh in was either. I measured myself and I figured my body fat went from 28.3% to 28.25%, not enough to go and celebrate, but enough to say my exercising is working a little.
Kristin